Dear Ravi,
Happy Earth Day! It is a beautiful sunny day outside. A good day to walk the dogs. On our walk yesterday we saw a beautiful male cardinal. I know it was you just dropping in to say hi. I greeted you. You sat in a tree near me, cocked your head and began to sing. Literally, I had goosebumps. It was good to see you. I miss you. Your trees are shyly putting forth buds, the daffodils are blooming and the jonquils are popping up to say hello. It has been a long dark winter, but spring in definitely here, and Minnesotans rejoice.
Lots going on here. I think I have the insurance snafu settled. Apparently, I have MA, just like you did. I have rescheduled all my doctor appointments. It feels good to be out of PHP, I was not meant to stay in one room all day long. It was very helpful, but one month was more than enough. I was planning on returning to work as a nanny until a few days ago. I came to the realization that my body is too tired and run down to be a nanny or a PCA anymore. I am talking to a lawyer tomorrow about possibly qualifying for SSDI. Besides the severe enduring anorexia, my back and neck are very unhappy with me. There are some days that I can walk for miles and get lots done. There are other days I can’t even drive myself to church. I have a steroid injection into my cervical spine in a few weeks, which I hope will help. This is only a short-term solution. Repeated use of steroids causes bone density to diminish, and I can’t run that risk. Sigh, I guess your mom is getting old. Still, I have many things to be grateful for. Since it is hard for me to drive, your daddy drove me to and from PHP for a month. We are surrounded by caring and loving friends. I rejoice in the days that I can get outside and move my body. I was blessed with 22 years of being able to love you. That is the greatest blessing of all.
Happy Earth Day in heaven, my love. I miss you more than words can express. I know that you are running free with Cousin Joyce. Please keep coming to me as a cardinal. Love you to the moon and back. Mom.
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